a shadow's proof.

Holding on to love...

...because her faith helps me believe.

A long road trip. Family time. Playing sleep catch up. Avoiding the computer.

...just a few reasons even the turtles have beat out my blog world activity.

Life's tough. No doubt it's beautiful...but it's also absolutely, positively, challenging and oftentimes difficult.

I must admit, even as a woman of faith, it's not always easy to have said faith. Aspiring to lead a faith-full life isn't always well, peachy. There's so much pain that exists with an unreal intensity that can bring a person to their knees in doubt. And let's just say, my knees know the floor well.

I always have to remind myself that it's okay to question things and even those with the strongest faith have seasons of doubt. I always have to remind myself to not compare my faith to that of anyone else's. I always have to remind myself that I will never know all the answers to my "why?" questions. And I always have to remind myself to choose to have faith, especially when it's really hard to make that choice.

And it's exactly that...Faith is a choice. We can believe or we can distrust. And it can be sooo easy to choose the latter. But easy kinda sucks. Easy has no story, no growth, no depth...it's just that, easy. It's easier for a student to sit on their butt rather than study for an exam. It's easier for a guy to not pursue a girl he really cares about because he didn't want to sacrifice other things. It's easier to sit back and watch other people chase their dreams instead of grabbing the bull by the horns to achieve your own. It's easier to not see the unseen instead of looking a little harder, providing your heart with an opportunity and a chance to believe.

Baby girl questions too, but the difference is she trusts that her cries will be heard.
.: She cries so we can hear her.
.: She cries to let us know she needs us.
.: She cries so we can be near to her, embrace her, comfort her, and cast out her fears.
She reminds us to have faith like a child, because children reason with their heart and their heart alone.

My prayers go out to all who are currently suffering. All without jobs, all without homes, all missing a loved one, all fighting a disease, all wanting a child, all suffering from awful weather, all who are ridiculed, all who are afraid, all plagued with worries and concerns, and all needing a reminder that it's okay to question because {compliments to Switchfoot}, a shadow is proof the sun is shining.
We're not alone.

:: victoria marie