Wednesday, March 7, 2012

just one.

Exactly a year ago, tonight, I experienced one of the most emotional nights of my life. I was 41 weeks pregnant and extremely anxious to give birth to our sweet daughter. Just like any good woman would, she made us wait for her. I stayed up all night crying, praying, begging, pleading, "...if I can have just one prayer answered tonight, please God, bring Marabelle into this world safely and if possible, soon and very soon." I just wanted to meet her, hold her, kiss her, protect her, and love her as best I could. I wanted to meet our sweet princess who's sparkle would reflect joy in ways we could never imagine.

Like any emotional mama, this week I've been busy driving down memory lane like a madwoman in denial that our baby girl is actually turning one on Friday. But after driving past all of the sweet hot spots, I realized so much could be said about just one year. Everyone tells you when you're about to become parents how your heart is about to explode with love like you've never imagined, and even if you can wrap your head around that concept, there's nothing like experiencing love's mega blast that happens when you hold your baby for the first time. Dynamite's got nothing on the explosive power of baby love, and when I say nothing, I mean nothing.

I'm filled with gratitude when I think back on all we've experienced in our daughter's first year. Not all moments have been easy, but even the most trying times were filled with grace. As a new mama, there were challenges I could have handled better, times when I let frustration win, times that I'm not proud of, and then there were those magical moments when I pleasantly surprised myself with how much and how strong I could fight for and protect someone, simply by loving them well.

In so many ways, it feels like this past year has sprinted past us but in just as many ways, its hard to imagine our life before her. With just one soft touch, with just one innocent coo, with just one contagious smile, with just one magnetic giggle, with just one sweet kiss, with just one beautiful little life, the world is forever changed. And with her determined spirit, her infectious joy, her piercing eyes, her outspoken nature, and her caring awareness, I trust God has big plans for this beautiful soul He's blessed us with nurturing.

Marabelle, sweet pea, before we ever met you, we knew we'd rock it out with you by our sides. Little did we know, how much just one year with you, would rock our worlds with love. And even though BabyCenter keeps telling us that your baby days are over and your toddler days have begun, you will always be our baby girl. Always.









These are some of my favorites from her first birthday shoot, taken by our good friend, Jackie
And the adorable flags in the background were made by Pretty Paper Parfait.
How yummy is this little princess? 
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4 comments:

Monica said...

OH! These pictures! I've been thinking about you and her all week. I cannot believe she's already one! She's totally yummy, totally. xoxo

Steph T said...

I can't stop the tears from coming. She's so incredibly big. You're so incredibly big (in a beautiful, mature, experienced mommy kind of way). God definitely knew what was coming a year ago...and look at you guys now. :)

Victoria Marie said...

Monica - thanks for leaving some love. miss you lots. truly. xoxo

Steph - thank you, mejorita. you always know what to say. so much love. <33

Steph T said...

<3<3